the mammogram was fine!

The other day when I went in for a mammogram, a mass showed up on the film that concerned the radiologist. Of course, her concern frightened me to my core. When I saw the mass on the film, I could only think about July 2008, when I went to the first radiology center and had to have a discussion about the possibility that my lump was cancer. Over a year later, the fear is still very very real.

I am happy to say that after I dropped off the film from my previous mammogram for comparison, I received a call from my doctor who told me that the radiologist felt that the mass that showed up on the film was NOT cancer.

Thank God.

Of course, in those hours between the first conversation and the second... (in my mind) I had already started thinking about going through chemo again, surgery again and all that comes along with it. I'm glad to know that I was worrying for no reason.

I believe that I will have to have a mammogram every 6 months (or possibly every 3 months) on my remaining breast in order to stay on top of any possibility of cancer showing up in that breast. But I would rather do that than remove the breast just in case.  But this "scare" really showed me that although I feel like I've come a long way in my treatment and I have a good attitude about it... I am truly still very scared about breast cancer. And that may take a long time to get over.