i had a moment of feeling "sexy" last night

So, my friends and I went out for a little "girls night happy hour"... and it turned out to be a good time.

Started with dinner at Eatonville, a new Zora Neal Hurston-themed restaurant in town. It was so yummy. If you're in the U Street area... be sure to check it out. They even have rocking chairs you can sit in. Drinks in mason jars... and great food. (get the cobbler, its fantastic!)

After a good dinner, we strolled around the corner to U Street to catch up with the rest of the girls and just have some fun. We started at one bar and then moved to a second bar. And for a moment it was so quiet that I wondered if we would have to move to a third bar. But we didn't. We made the party work where we were.

We had a blast. Just easy going laughter... crazy stories. Fun. I laughed a lot. And interestingly enough (to me) I actually blushed a few times.

Seems that I ran into a guy that I knew from a few years ago. I had not seen him in well over a year, maybe 2 and he was just as outrageous as I remembered. In fairness, I had forgotten about him actually. We never dated, just hung out in the same spots a few times. I thought he was cute but not quite my type. A little young, really brash... but fun. I remember that I used to tease him about being younger than me back then.

Well... he's grown now. (laughs) And far less inhibited than he was then -- which I didn't think was possible. He says whatever is on his mind. Flat out. I'm not too accustomed to that. Took me by surprise because...

It was absolutely delicious. I'll admit it now. (the conversation I mean)

To flirt with someone, like it was 2007 and not 2009... like I wasn't sitting there with my friends with one part of my brain thinking about chemo next week. Just FLIRTING and having fun.

It was remarkable to me. I had forgotten what it felt like to just see someone you found attractive and talk to them... with no concern other than, I wonder does he find me attractive too?

He did. And he told me so many times.

(laughs)

I smiled the entire time I remained at Indulj... all the way home... and for a couple of hours after I got into the bed.

It felt so good.

...I'd tell you his name but, a girl has to keep some secrets to herself. But, I will share with you that I'm feeling like springtime over here. A little blooming here and there... of my sexiness and my confidence.

Feels good.

Let's hope it lasts for awhile.